Well lets start with the bad. Just to get it out of the way.
Alll day I have been having very negative thoughts about myself. It started when i got dressed this morning for work. I am a NICU nurse, so scrubs are the uniform. And the pants….they BARELY fit. Now that wouldnt bother me too much, except 6 months ago I was in a size medium. Not these are large and I barely fit in them!!!!!!!
I have something (HORRIBLE) to admit. I have gone from 160ish lbs to 180s. Yep.I have gained almost 30 lbs. I think i know why, I started two new medications that increase weight. So Im going to talk to my doctor about it. but it still shouldnt increase that much! Right?
I dont like how I like. I looked in the mirrow this morning (with only a bra and my scrub pants on-ok too much info) But I thought- biggest loser (I know I saw the show last night) but my love handles were hanging over my pants. Im usually pretty “skinny” around the middle. and carry my weight in my butt and thighs. I couldnt stand the sight of it.
I have been working my BUTT off this past week. Running 7 miles. Taking spinning at the gym. Everyday I have pretty much done something. But NOTHING is happening.
🙂 IF YOU MADE IT THIS FAR THANK YOU_ On to the good!
I just received the P90X DVDs from my brother. He got them and is nice enough to share! YEA! So Im going to try and get rid of my negative thoughts after work by going to the gym or doing a DVD. ( also my AWESOME spark friends have suggested the P90X stretch dvd)
I really appreciate you all reading about my bad day. I just dont really know where to turn. I want to look in the mirror and feel good about myself, not think YUCK. But where do I go from here……….