A few new things

After the late night with the tooth fairy, Andrew and I were pretty tired this morning. That’s right, Andrew lost his third baby tooth last night.

But of course we were able to make a Target visit, and get way too much stuff we didn’t need ­čÖé

First, we grabbed thank yous for Andrew’s friends. Aren’t they so cute!

I grabbed this coffee. Different coffee brand, some flavor. It was OK. I’m not sure I will buy it again

NEW VITA TOP FLAVORS!!! I love vita tops and I have never tried these kinds before. Verdict: the banana choco chip are delicious!!!

And cashews. Because I just love them haha

Question for you:

Why is it that when you go into target you always walk out with a million more things than you planned?

I stink

Trust me, Ill explain the title. Now for the eats

Breakfast was yummy pancakes. I was going to take a picture…..then a couldnt find my camera (insert a lot of panic)

┬áLuckily, I found it in my purse….not so lucky, that I ate it all before I found it haha

It was then time for the post office. Party City. Target.

I made cupcakes for my friends bachelorette party tomorrow.

Box of cake mix + 12 oz of diet soda= HEAVEN!

Then I will add cool whip on top tomorrow.

 The bachelorette party is in springfield IL. I am one of the bridesmaids. Here I am with the bride (in the orange) with two of the other bridesmaids.

After making cupcakes, it was time to make the bride’s cup for tomorrow.

This isnt the best picture. But I put hearts and different shapes around the top and bottom. Also a J (for the bride) and M (for the groom) I hope she likes it! I love doing projects like this!

All that fun work required some fuel. (even though I snacked all morning on cashews

They are the devil!

Then lunch consisted of ONLY orange (and yummy foods)

 cantaloupe, colby cheese, and sweet potato fries
Dinner I went all brown. A bowl of cereal. Boring.
THEEENNNNNNNN it was movie night with Andrew

I had a glass of wine and 100 cal popcorn, while he had mini chips ahoy (LUCKY)

——————————————————————————————-SOOOO back to the title.

Basically I feel like I stink, not in a BO sense, but a failure to myself…

. I am not happy with whats going on right now with my body. I have absolutely no energy. Today just running a few errands, totally kicked my butt. I never use to be this way! I use to run/bike for miles EACH day. I would take break days, but I ALWAYS got back to it. I dont know if its the meds Im on, the lack of sun Ive been getting, hormone problems, or just plain laziness.

this was a year ago

 Today I figured out my calories on sparkpeople.com (which I love) and it was almost 2000 calories! WHAT! I dont know what my deal is. I eat. Dont exercise. Cant Sleep.

I know I am stressed about my soon to be house. But I have these clothes……

(my closet is NOT this clean right now)

……………………………………………………………………………………………….nothing fits.

I have gained 30lbs in the past 6 months. My booty looks like two basketballs. I jiggle. I hate looking in the mirror. I have a wedding next month that I have to wear my dress and feel good about it! I dont want to go out because when I have to find something to wear I get depressed.

I dont want to give up. I want to have a healthy body. I want to look in the mirror and think DAMN she looks good. (haha)

Ok enough debbie downer.

I guess I just need some help.

I dont know what else to say. Im actually tearing up while typing this.

Im lost.