Healthy Living, Healthy Kidney

I have been EXTREMELY blessed the past few weeks. I know that sounds crazy to say, since they found cancer and I had to have surgery. But the amount of support and prayers I have received from family and friends has been AMAZING.

My family was there the first weeks, with pain medication, cleaning, cooking, and taking care of Andrew. There is no way I would have been able to do that by myself. I was barely able to do anything. I basically ate and slept.

My friends have been checking on me as well. Sending cards and texts, and coming for visits. I had no idea how much these would mean to me, but they were exactly what I needed to stay sane haha They¬†have also brought meals the past week, which has helped immensely! And Andrew’s friends have taken him to play, so that he can run around and be a kid. Which has made this mom so happy. I didn’t want Andrew just to sit around and watch tv. this way he can go and be a kid ūüôā

My work family sent a generous gift of gift cards and money raised. I was beyond words. I had no idea that they did this for me, and it makes me cry just thinking about it. They have also come to visit, send cards, and take me to lunch. My NICU family really is amazing!

After a month of recovery, I have been looking back, and it all seems so strange. It is finally becoming a reality. But now I have started focusing on the future. I decide I want to be healthy for me. for Andrew. for my kidney. haha. And that is what this is all about. Instead of working on some goals each week, or having a competition of losing X amount of weight by X date, I want to be HEALTHY. That is my goal.

So each Friday, I will be talking about things that make my kidney happy ¬†ūüôā

Blogs I’ve seen this week:

Gretchen at Honey, I Shrunk the Gretchen wrote about 3 diet changes

Paleo Parents’ 50 tips for getting seriously strong

How to get Organized in a small house

 Any help, advice, or encouragement is welcome!

 Question for you:

What is one thing you do (or don’t do) to make you happy?

 

When life gets you down….you know what you have to do?

Just keep swimming…Just keep swimming…Just keep swimming….

Although I didn’t get to swim today (Man that would have helped) I did have life pushing me around a lot today.

But instead of dwelling, I want to share two things that are going GREAT in my life.

I have this amazing little dude to share it with (who loves to fall asleep in my bed, because it is more comfy ūüôā

And this addition to the bathroom

So if you think. Wow. she is happy about her son, and the fact that this sink got put in. Well….then you can imagine how the rest of the day might have gone.

I only cried twice.

Ok three times. You got me! haha

Question for you:

Off the top of your head, what is something you are happy about?

Negative Nancys

The urban dictionary describes a Negative Nancy as Someone who commonly whines, complains, or looks at the bad side of things. (the website even has examples haha)

The past few weeks, I have had my run ins with several Negative Nancys, and I have been surrounded by a lot of negativity.

I feel stressed. And exhausted from freaking out  dweling on it. (why should I? Its not in my hands) But at the end of the day, my mind is racing about what could have been said? What should have been done differently? Why is this happening BLAH BLAH BLAH

If you follow me on twitter, you probably could see over the past 4 days my different posts 

Kristen

off to the gym to get rid of this knot in my stomach and get some endorphines haha. what else can I do to brighten up the day?
 
9 Oct via web
 

And even though the gym did help, I still can’t believe the betrayal I feel.

(Yes. I know Im not being specific. (dont you hate that!) But 1/2 of the¬†issue has to deal with family, and I don’t want them to read this and get the wrong idea.)

Basically, a few incidents happened. I felt used. Betrayed. And really really pissed off. And some of those people, know it. And yet don’t care.

I am the kind of person who tries to think of everyone. Especially their feelings. I don’t want anyone left out, or hurt, or in the dark.

Sometimes this comes to bite me in the booty. Ok…..lets be honest. A lot of the time.

When I tell someone I can’t do something. They look at me like I have three heads.

What do you mean you can’t give me a million dollars, when you did 5 times before?

I hardly EVER tell people no. Oh sure! I can do this, that, and the other thing you need.

Sure, you can take my heart and smash it into a million pieces. NOOOO Problem!

At the end of the day, I am sitting here. Mad. Hurt. Used. and heartbroken all over again. And I think……..why can’t I just be a mean person like these Negative Nancys. Wouldn’t that just be easier?

nope. It’s not in my system. My grandma gives everyone 100%. My mom does it without any favor in return. And here I am following in their footsteps.

the family at my brothers wedding

When you have a friend, family member, or lover stab you in the back, use you, or tell you “Im just not that into you”, what do you do?

Well, Ill tell you what IM going to do today. I’m going to yoga. Yes ma’am. I am going to sweat and breath all this NEGATIVE Sh*t out of my life.

I know I am not perfect. (that is not what this post is about) It also isn’t to say I am the best person in the world. All I am saying is there are about 4 people right now, who are very close to me, that are making me feel this way. And all for different reasons. WHY CAN”T EVERYONE BE NICE!

Eleanor Roosevelt said “Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent.”

So I am off. To make my day a good one. Because I decide whether or not today is going to be a good day, or a day of staying in bed eating all the ice cream haha

Question for you:

Do you find negative nancy’s in your life?

(disclosure. I know my mom’s name is Nancy. I am not talking about her in the post. She has actually been very supportive during all of these situations. Love you mom!)