Pins and Needles

The past few days have been really hard.

The reason I didn’t post on Monday was because at 830 in the morning I got stuck with a needle at work. I had to go to occupational health to get blood drawn. I was a mess. I couldnt eat or sit still. It didn’t help that Im still so unsure of what is happening with Ian and our future (and well that kills me. IM A PLANNER ! haha)

Ok. back to the needle. Monday they took blood for a baseline. THen I will get it again in four weeks and 6 months. I will get a postcard from them telling me Im done. haha I was able to laugh with the lady downstairs about the postcards haha

In the next four weeks I can’t donate blood, or share anything that would be bloody (toothbrush, toothpick (NO PROBLEM! haha), etc)

When I got home from work, I was a mess. I didnt want to be at home.  I called Ian to vent and the first thing he said was “do you want to come out here and talk”. It was exactly what I needed. We talked about anything and everything. (except the future) He even had me laughing (Laughter IS the best medicine)

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Tuesday was alittle better at work. Sundays are a little slower in the NICU (not as many doctors and visitors) So the girls and I just sat around talking girl talk. It was perfect. I forgot (for a mini-second) about the needle stick.

I didn’t post last night because I went STRAIGHT to bed after work. I only got about 3 hrs of sleep on Monday night.

Bottom line:

-I still have no idea what is going on with Ian. We did talk a little bit, but not as much as we need.  I want a title: dating, talking, seeing eachother, exclusive, etc. haha. My friends at work laugh at me for this one. but like I said before, Im a planner and want to know what the F is going on

-The blood work will have to wait for four weeks. In that time, I am told to not worry about it….Riiiggghhhhttttt. Im on pins and needles about everything!

Question for you:

What makes you happy today?

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