working the days away

The past two weeks have been crazy. ExaMple:

  • Monday: work
  • Tuesday:work
  • Wednesday: work
  • Thursday: laundry, grocery store,cook, clean, community group
  • Friday: work
  • Saturday:work
  • Sunday:work
  • Monday:work
  • (Today )Tuesday: cook, clean, workout,nap,hang out with a drew
  • Wednesday :work
  • Thursday: off work!!!!
  • Friday: on call
  • Sat and sun: off work!!

As you can see, i have been working an awful lot. Not only to help my uNit at the hospital out, But also to pay for a few tHings around the house. Like a new furnance and new tires on my car.


All things that need to be repaired before winter. Now to find fun things to spend it on! Haha

Even though i was away from andrew wayyyyy too much we talked everyday and he came to visit me at work. He had lunch with In the cafeteria. Like our own little mini date


And then when i came home I had the prettiest flowers and card. It was very sweet. 20141012_194755apparently these were “go cardinals” flowers that were sold at the store here in st louis haha. Loved his picture


Then today, I walked him to school. Something we havent done in two weeks. Best part of the day for sure.

So even though work has taken me from andrew, I know that it will help us in the future 🙂 and im off this weekend!

Question for you:

What is the last big thing you Bought?

Do you have trouble spending money on yourself?

The good and bad kept me away

Hi everyone!!! I had no idea it has been 3 weeks since I have been here! I took a LONNNGGG break. There are of course MANY reasons while i have been away, but the main was I needed a break.

With everything that has happened so far this year, I wanted to unplug. There was also SO many things I wanted to do at home, with Andrew, and with myself, that the blog fell to the wayside.


We had a furry visitor who was dropped on my hands in the middle of the night by our cat May May


My dad came over that morning and we released him outside. He was much cuter outside!



I also have gone back to work full time. It has been a rough transition, since I am still getting my strength back. But on a positive note, I am SOOOOOO happy to be back. I have missed all my coworkers and the babies so much. ❤ NICU


I also had this amazing “friend” visit outside the window at work


On a not so happy note, I was in a car accident last week.


Luckily, everyone was ok . But the person who hit me who’s fault it was, does not have insurance, so I have to pay for some of it 😦


I also had another doctors visit while I was away. I did need to be put under, but no incisions and I was able to go home that day.


It all went great and I am just now being followed 🙂


Andrew and I are finally back at the pool~


this is him going down the FAST slide! There is just something about being out in the sun that makes me happy


I know there has been so much going on, I am sure I forgot some things on here, but I promise amanda I will be around more now!

Question for you:

What is something big (or not so big) that is going on for you the past few weeks?


5 years!

This week I received a letter from work saying congrats for reaching an anniversary milestone at the hospital.

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I still can’t believe I have been there for 5 years! It has gone by so fast!!

(my first day in the NICU)


So here are some of the goodies I can choose from.

Lets start with the goofy ones………

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waffle maker, just for holly!
waffle maker, just for holly!

And these are some that I am considering

if only I had a smart phone.....
if only I had a smart phone…..


this is the one Im leaning towards
this is the one Im leaning towards

So which should I get?!?!?!

Question for you:

How long have you been at your current job?

What was your most favorite job?

-I was a swim couch for years before I graduated from college. I had so much fun

Surviving Four in a Row

HOLY MOLY! The past four days in the NICU were a bit rough. I sat for maybe a few minutes here and there, thank goodness for morning glory muffins, chobani, and planning ahead!


Unfortuantly, with no time even to cut an apple, I did shovel eat some candy on Tuesday. I haven’t been that busy in awhile, so today, I took it easy.

cat nap

I didn’t workout. I didn’t leave the house except to read at Andrew’s library class, and pick him up from school. I am now off for FIVE DAYS with him! I missed him so much, since he is asleep by the time I get home (I haven’t seen him since Friday- just chats on the phone

me and andrew

This weeks workout plan:

  • Thursday: Small circuit than yoga with annie
  • Friday: still up in the air..
  • Saturday: PIYO class at the gym
  • Sunday: spin class

Even though the four shifts were difficult, I still stayed healthy (except for the candy on Tuesday) Thanks to extra planning! I’m hoping for a weight lose this week. Today, my body was in FULL recovery mode. Eating more and lots of rests.

Question for you:

What is your workout plans for the week?

(feel free to send me a kick in the booty to get moving!)

5 of the last 6

Today was a little bit of a break. The previous three days I worked, and now I will work the next two. So today was catch up with laundry, cleaning, and trying to be lazy. (It didn’t work. working 5 out of 6 days is a little rough)



But I wanted to tell you about the evil lurking around the NICU



They are everywhere!!!

At home, I don’t have cookies, cake, pizza, etc lying around, but when I go to work, it finds me!


This past weekend, there were cookies at a lecture during lunch, and then there were donuts on Sunday. I defiantly  wanted a few bites!

I decided instead to pop in a piece of gum, and read from my nook it did the trick! WAHOOO!!

gum wall

(I didn’t take the piece off this wall..haha)

Question for you:

What is your trick for staying away from certain foods?

How was your weekend?

I survived

Well. It’s official. I survived my six 12 hour shifts in the NICU.


Unfortuantly, it wasn’t that great and included several difficult days. First, with the babies, and then with the rest of this week.

To lift my spirits, pizza and wine with ALL of Andrew’s pumpkins haha

I hope ALL my blogging buddies and their families are ok on the East Coast. Here in the NICU, we were talking about how they had to evacuate their NICU babies. I can’t imagine!

Question for you:

Red or white wine?

What are you doing for Halloween?

Pigs can Fly

Last week I did the unthinkable. I think hell froze over and pigs began to fly, because I went running before work!!!!

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Now I know to a lot of people, thats not a big deal. To me, its big. Over the past few years, I went from working out in the evenings (ie. when I was in college and didn’t wake up till 11 or later). Nowadays, I have to work out in the morning or for the most part, it won’t get done.

I tried to work out after work, but that didn’t last. After waking up at 5:45, dragging myself out of bed, getting to work, and handing 12 hours in the NICU, well, sometimes energy was short to come by. (and I really hated changing from scrubs to workout clothes, I’d rather be in my PJs haha)

Anyway, back to running. My friend Denise at work gets up every morning before work. She can even get 6 miles in before our 7am shift. I think she gets up at 4 or some unknown hour. Bottom line: she is crazy and AWESOME!!!!!! jk She is an amazing runner, super fast, and even though she has had her fair share of injuries recently, she still seems to love it.

Last week, I put on facebook that I was going to go running at work. Andrew was at my parents for the night, and I just thought, I’m going to do this! Well, it didn’t happen. I got a call at 11pm from my parents, my mom was having a serious asthma attack and they were possibly going to have to use her epi pen and take her to the ER. So no sleep for me.

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Then a few days later, I worked with Denise. I told her I was going to go running before work tomorrow. And if I told her I was going, then i would, because I wouldn’t want to let her down.  I went home from work, got everything ready for the next day, and went to bed at 8:45. hahah. yes I’m a grandma and go to bed REALLY early, but the 12 hour days can take it out of you.

 4:55 first alarm goes off. lay back down

4:57 Second alarm goes off. ROLLLLLLLLL my body out of bed and got dresssed.

5:02 Head outside. OH MY GOSH. it is still really dark. I hope no one jumps me

5:03 So where I am going to go? haha.

I ended up making a big loop around my house, sticking to the main streets. It really was dark! I finished almost 3 miles!

5:40 Shower

5:50 Dressed, breakfast (which I usually dont eat before work) and ice coffee- YUMMM

6:10 Time to check some blogs and then makeup

6:20 Off to work!

It really was an awesome experience. And even though I didn’t WANT to get out of bed that early, it felt great during the run and all day I felt alert (except around 5pm, I was ready to go home! haha)

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Spring Forum

HOLY MOLY. Is it a billion degrees anywhere else but St LOuis???

I actually turned the air on for 3 hours today. But mostly because my dad and brother were here working on the bathroom. The floor got framed out. And apparently it will go very fast after this…….ive heard that before


While they were working, I was actually at the hospital. But not for my regular 12 hour shift in the NICU, I was there for a 4 hour class. The topic was maternal drug abuse during pregnancy, and the effects on the baby.

Unfortuantly, the medical team does meet mothers who have used drugs (alcohol, illegal drugs, cigerettes, etc) during their pregnancy. And what is worse, the babies are effected.

baby Andrew

Today, we had several speakers from our social workers (LOVEEE THEM), our pharmacists (they spoke RIGHT over my head, but I love them too), and the last speaker was  a psychiatrist from another hospital.

There was so much information on what we can do to help these parents and babies, what physically happens to the parents and babies, and the future of these families.

The class started with role play. And guess who volunteered after 15 seconds of silence…..yours truely. I was the nurse who walked into the room of a mom visiting for the first time, and who had used during pregnancy. I actually get a little nervous being infront of  a big group, but I also LOVE it (especially if I know what Im talking about haha). It went really well, and helped to open the discussions to some of the parents we have in our NICU.

Question for you:

Do you mind being in front of a large crowd?

-funny thing, I hated my public speaking class my freshman year of college. Most likely, because I wrote it the night before. oops.

sugar coated

Dear candy,
I hate your stinkin' guts.
you make me vomit.
you are the SCUM between my toes. 
Love. Kristen

Yup today was one of those days.


This morning the whole city was awoken by tornado sirens and hail. I was one of them. Needless to say, sleep was not happening. Luckily, there weren’t any tornado sightings, and the house is intact.


But, we weren’t as lucky in the NICU.

Work started w/ a baby going to heaven. And two others not doing well. (and this was just in my area of 12 babies)

Needless to say, tension was high, along w/ emotions. And I was one of them.

So I ate candy. DARN YOU. haha

The past week or so, I have felt AMAZING. I don’t even think I have lost weight. But I have more energy, am happier, and I always find time to workout.

After today, when I ate my body weight in candy, I see why I need to stay away from this stuff.

But man, for 3.5 seconds…it taste SOOOOOO good haha

So tomorrow is another day in the NICU, and Im getting a jump start on getting back on track. My lunch is packed w/ healthy treats. I am also in bed already (yup. its 9pm) so I can get a good nights sleep.

For me… sleep=overeating. It happens everytime.

Well, I’m off to bed!

I ALMOST FORGOT!!! Im one lucky lady to come home to this little guy 🙂

(he is the one in red if you can’t find him under all the stuffed animals haha)

Question for you:

Ever fallen off the wagon?? how do you hop back on?

Do you have a sweet or savory tooth?

One Flaw

Yesterday was one of those days.

It started w/ the first snow for St Louis (can you believe that!?!!? January for the first snow). Well, it was a long and slow commute to work, but I made it all in one piece.

Work was not long and slow. I hit the ground running when I first came in at 7 am, and it didn’t stop until I clocked out at 19:30 (hey at least I was on time! haha) THe baby had had today, was just not having a good day….at all.

The day also started w/ news that one of my good friends lost her baby. She and her husband have been trying for awhile to get pregnant. and I was so happy when we finally got the news! She was actually in my house when she first told me. I send all the prayers and love in the world to her and her family.

After this, I also knew I needed to talk to Ryan.  I never like to have this conversation. To say “This just isn’t going to work”. Even if I have only been talking to someone for a few weeks, it still feels like a “break up”.

Then on the drive home, I got a text from Andrew’s dad. and it wasn’t very nice. Let’s leave it at that.

So here I am going down the highway at 40 miles per hour, trying to not get hit by anyone on the slick snowy roads. And also trying not to pass out because Im Exhausted! And I began to cry. (LET IT OUT GIRL! haha)

I went and tucked Andrew into bed, and talked with my mom. She was an ICU nurse back in the day, and talking with her always makes me feel better. And then when I got home, I took a bath. IT WAS AWESOME! and I checked my email. And my mom had sent me this:


God doesn’t give you the people you want; He gives you the people you NEED…to help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.


One Flaw In Women


Women have strengths that amaze men…

They bear hardships and they carry burdens,

but they hold happiness, love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.

They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy

and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in…

They stand up to injustice.

They don’t take “no” for an answer

when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have.

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel

and cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about

a birth or a wedding.

Their hearts break when a friend dies.

They grieve at the loss of a family member,

yet they are strong when they

think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss

can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.

They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you

to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what

makes the world keep turning.

They bring joy, hope and love.

They have compassion and ideas.

They give moral support to their

family and friends.

Women have vital things to say

and everything to give..


The thing I found ironic, she sent this to me this afternoon. Before she even knew I was having a rough day. I swear, sometimes, we received something just when we need it!

Question for you:

Your awesome in many ways, what is one of them?

-I wear my heart on my sleeve. Which is pretty awesome (even though it gets wounded more easily)